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When Am I Not a Beginner Anymore?

There are no answers in this post, just questions and thoughts that have been circling around in my head.

I’ve been writing for many many years. I’ve even sold some stories for real money and done paid blogging, and yet I usually think of myself as a beginning writer. I guess this attitude stems from not yet having finished a fully revised and polished novel (I have written several first-draft only novels). Also, while I’ve been writing for a long time, I don’t write all that much, or all that often. Nowhere near as often as I’d like anyway. For awhile I was trying to keep track of my word count so I knew when I hit my million words, but I didn’t keep up with that, so I don’t know if that landmark has been hit or not. Probably not quite yet, but maybe?

I’ve been noticing lately, when something pops up in my news feed with a title like, “Advice for beginning writers”, I find that I already know most of what’s there. I’ve heard it before anyway. Occasionally, I’ll even disagree with some piece of advice given, and I’ll have reasons for my dissent. So I imagine that I could maybe be moving past the beginner phase. Yet, that’s still how I think of myself and it’s a hard mental image to change. How many phases are there? Am I intermediate? Certainly not advanced. Does it even matter?

I think where it does matter is in finding lessons to continue my growth as a writer. Like I said, articles for beginners are feeling less relevant to me all the time, but I believe all writers can grow and improve, and the greats never stop learning. Finding craft books or advice from authors I admire is how I find myself moving forward more lately.

I’ve also been jogging now for about 8 months. I did the Couch to 5K week 1 day 1 jog the same day as my recheck exam with my surgeon and he gave me the green light to start exercising again. After I finished that training program I have been looking for advice on how to proceed, and I’m finding all kinds of often contradictory advice. I’m realizing that much of my confusion is from not always understanding who an article is aimed at. So many jogging articles seem to assume everyone is running races and trying to finish faster. I started to get a little better, more helpful results when I added ‘for women over 40’ to my jogging related searches. Yet, I got a lot of the same advice over and over again.

Does the repetition mean I’m not a beginner jogger anymore? I don’t think so. I didn’t jog this morning for example because I’m fairly sure I’ve developed mild shin splints and all advice says the solution is rest (or biking – yea for the Peloton.) I also bet most running coaches would classify someone with less than a year of running under them, especially someone like me that was extremely limited physically before that, a beginning runner. That’s fine. I don’t care what I’m called, but I do want to know where to turn for good advice on how to continue without hurting myself (re:this shin splint issue) but also without not pushing myself enough. I don’t know where that line is. Most of the advice I’m finding is aimed at someone just starting a C25K or similar program, or someone who has run a bunch or races and knows their ‘race pace’. I’m feeling a bit lost in between.

I suppose the solution in both cases, is to not care. To just keep going. Doing my best. Reading and learning, and making progress wherever I can, and not caring about labels. The value of the labels should be that it helps with the tracking down of useful resources, but I’m not sure that’s always the case. I guess, reading an article or listening to a podcast that just tells me stuff I already knew isn’t the end of the world. Sometimes we need to hear things more than once for it to stick after all.

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